A break from work

Sometimes Im not so sure its a good thing
To break a habit thats coming to 4 years
Its amazing how I have not stepped into a Starbucks for the past 2 months, not even on weekdays
And even more astounding that my work stops when I stepped out of the office
A change for the better? I hope…

But at moments, I still question the sanity of this
For one, my laptop cant hurt me (unless I decide to slam my head on it when it starts lagging like an old lady)
My notebook doesn’t have mood swings and requires special care and precautions when I try to approach it
My excel sheets or work documents won’t go crazy on me and start to attack from behind the screen

Then doesn’t it makes more sense to spend more time on something that’s
1. Fair and reaps equal returns
(What you give is what you get)
2. Easier and almost monotonously routine
(Not exciting yes but at least not heart-wrenching)
3. Less complicated
(Nothing more challenging than a few hundred emails, yes?)
4. Not making me sleepless at nights
(In fact, I want nothing more than to sleep when Im working)
???

I think I have commitment issues
Period.

Everytime things start getting too serious, I can almost hear this wailing alert going off inside my head, saying something sinisterly close to the sound of “RUNNNNNN”!!!

Sigh
I need help… seriously